i yove you weewy much...

The Lord was kind to give me a very good day with William. Normally, there's a lot of rebellion and bad attitudes that need to be worked through with him... ok, as well as with me, to be totally honest. Let's just say that the Lord has been doing much lately in terms of using each of us to sanctify the other. =)

However, William and I had an especially difficult time before his bedtime. I had definitely sinned against him. And before I was convicted about seeking his forgiveness, I was brought to tears as my little boy pursued me a few minutes later and told me he wanted me (instead of Bill) to put him down for bed. He said, "Momma put you down. Momma, I yove you weewy [really] much." He said that about 3 times before I could even respond to him because I was so taken aback by his love that did not even consider how he had been wronged. "Momma, I yove you weewy much." He had so very quickly forgiven me before I had sought his forgiveness. "Momma, I yove you weewy much."

Can't tell you how blown away I was by how the Lord gave me a little window into how He covers over my sin and pursues me even when I have not repented of my sins and am still deep in it. William pursued me as if I had never sinned against him. And I was immediately convicted that that's how the Lord treats me... that even despite how I constantly sin against Him, He treats me as if I never sinned against Him. And I know that's only possible because of the blood of Jesus that covers me by His substitutionary sacrifice on the cross for my sins. Jesus bore God's wrath for me so I would not ever have to bear it myself... even when I still sin. God is the same towards me regardless of whether I sin. He is ALWAYS kind regardless of whether I sin. He is ALWAYS patient regardless of whether I sin. He is ALWAYS compassionate regardless of whether I sin. It is the gospel that gives me hope "that He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Christ" (Phil. 1:6)... that with His help and the fact that I am a new creation, I can grow in becoming a better Momma to William. His mercies are truly new every morning. Isn't that amazing? Every morning, the Lord has fresh, new mercies to pour out on His children. Every day, there are new opportunities to start anew because of His mercies, both old and new.

What amazing grace was displayed through my precious little boy. And how grateful I am to the Lord for him... he doesn't even know how much the Lord is using him to teach his momma all kinds of good and important things on a daily basis, especially about being the first to extend grace and being quick to forgive.

William, I yove you weewy much.... more than you will ever know!